It's Zenobia

I was gonna love you With my eyes closed But I don't know If I can manage The dark I was gonna leave you But my mind knows The steep price It would Cost of my heart So I'm crossing my heart For safe keeping From my demons As I dream them Out Out Out Of my life I was gonna love you With my eyes closed But I am Desperate for light I was gonna leave you But my mind knows That you Are everything right

I make lists  of things  that I think  will  make me  somehow  better  at life the things that I need the things that I like  the ones  that feel  right  and I  find every first line holding  your eyes your hands your face  your name and my heart is afraid desperately  trying to quickly erase to start over to replace  the ache  that I feel  I avoid  avert  appeal  to my lonely  aching soul  to let you  to leave you  to make you  go  a fresh page blank lines  pen set and I  drag it down then across and I know... I know I know... that this list is my truth  and my  heart  has been  lost