It's Zenobia

I wake  And I know that I need Something beautiful Something strong and heavy and full I need to be  Breathed in deeply, surrounded, and enveloped By something beautiful  Something that presses down On me, in me,  over me, over me, over me,  Until I am drowning and gasping And praying beneath it,  I need something beautiful  To fill the empty spaces inside of me To coat and caress the walls of my heart, My self, my mind, I've come so far But now I know I need  Something strong and heavy and deep That sees and knows me, That speaks Only to me Something that has made a language  For my ears alone  That aches for my voice alone I can think only of this need  For something beautiful to taste At night, and then again when I wake I need something beautiful to quench every ache I need something beautiful I need Something To surrender to, to fall apart with Tonight I close my eyes And hope for my need Of something Beautiful

If you weren't you then maybe I  would be able to walk away today  for good  it would be so easy  if only  you weren't  the beginning of my day  thoughts in the soft corners of my heart if you weren't there at night in the dark  when my eyes closed I could simply cross the street and meet  the rest of my life if I didn't know  with a certainty so strong that it wouldn't be right I wouldn't be I  or me if there wasn't a we I could forget we ever were if only I hadn't given my best self and for the first time felt  what true was  with you Love life was everything life was anything  we believed in  I saw the future in the stars that I counted in your eyes If you weren't you  I could burn the map that had our names, our hearts, our paths side by side  the math added up  and us was what we loved and I could leave if I hadn't found a place my heart could trust I could let me leave If I believed that figh...