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Saudade Words

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Sometimes I think  you wanna lose me so you can listen to sad music  drive all night  tears spilling from your eyes  Like your life's a movie  I'm convinced you're musing in the past tense when it happens... I was everything you wanted  beautiful  and tragic kind, sweet, easy to please an air of summer magic existing in the fringes till you saved me  caught me  in the palm of your hands changed me  and I reached for you each and every  day  till that last time  till you lost me till you forgot what it cost me forgot I was here stopped reaching for me so slowly I faded away and you hated the way the days passed without me and you begged  and you pleaded tried to convince me  I was what you needed  and now  you're h olding back  those tears replaying the scenes But this  was never more  than just a dream  You just like the way  that ache tastes  You revel ...
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Grow Words

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We were Toys R Us Boisterous  And time pushes hard  But I  don't wanna grow up Too hard  To please  Two peas So sweet Now an empty pod  Distance got In between  In the seams  Unraveling  The intricacies  Of the only stable  Every day  you and me  That made life Everything I needed Now I'm eating at the sink standing  on my own at the brink  of a quiet  insanity  A smile thru pain kinda clarity of everything  ahead of me  It's not the end but it is  sorta,  I have to  pay attention  to the new me to my own needs  The green of my aura  the blue of my soul teal tears  staining my cheeks as I wade thru  muddy meloncholy  on my own waters unknown rivers too quick  oceans too deep and I try  and I try  and I trip and I keep  getting up  again  and again  purple knees and bruised hope  and who knows maybe there's som...
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Blue Words

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I was gonna write  about the way  You make me feel but I've been distracted  by your eyes how they are both o cean a nd sky A blue so perfect  I purposely  f orget h ow to swim So I can sink  down slow  a nd drown i n them Eyes that crinkle  at the edges when laughters getting  the best of you Eyes framed  by freckles  the way  the sky is framed by stars clear cool pools  and from afar A blue  that's kissed by the gray  of storms  at sea with a brightness like lighting  crashing  it's heat deep  into me the blue  left  by the sun sinking  into the earth  a velvet so crushing  it hurts in the most  delicious of ways a melancholy blue that begs me  to stay  I wanted to write  about the way You make me  feel  but the blue  of your  eyes has revealed my inability to focus so this  is now an ode  to you a...
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Version Words

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My version of in love  Is in some Empty field Blades of grass Made of glass Sharp Shimmering  In the sun Cutting  Like a tongue and as I  wade through the wind  moves, its whispers demand my head and heart pay attention  then leave me with scars  to keep me  from getting  too far away humbled crippled  cut deep so I stay stay stay this is love I take notes I stay close I stay closed to other possibilities I lose hope  that anyone  will come for me and so slow I change  the wires in my mind rearrange make space write code this is life this is love there is no other way this is everything I've wanted  every  single  cut  is honest I ask  I chase I stay  I bend  I break  I  accommodate I make up  for my  missing pieces I apologize for being  me  just as I am  I understand that love  is heavy hard sharp I embrace it  as it breaks the heart I now ke...
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Float Words

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I float...slow My boat  Filled with holes Acid tears f all The wood,  Holds  More water  Than hope  And He  Hasn't come To save me Instead  To maybe Just be  By my side For as long  As I'd like Show me  How to waterproof  My vessel  How to use the tools I never  Let myself Reach for He's here for  Company  Currently  Coaxing me Gently Letting me  Sense he Is more Than he says  More than  A friend  He offers me  Opportunity  To be understood;  My nature, My tendency  To avoid Caring Kindness To expect Only clemency So he shows me  How to care For each Piece Of the wood Beneath me How to treat it How to seal it Line it With the resiliency  Of trust  Of love Of things I'm not familiar w ith  That he insists I deserve I observe As he Whispers His promises So as not to scare me He gives me space To escape To think To sink As I see fit As I am wary Of his...
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Renovation Words

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He speaks of love some eternal  creature reaching  across time  to consume us  He  a quiet  simple  human  who in  months has somehow  undone brick  by  brick  my decades of debris concrete solid  structures towering walls falling free in relief at his feet leaving  me in awe in lieu of speech He  an engineer building  bridges  out of the  broken  pieces  of my heart to guide me across the stars to carry me  when the  journey  is hard and I  spill tears plead fears and he hears the truth  in my cries and he fashions new words new pages blank for new  stages new stories now only  written  in a sweet  soft language soothing replacing  the anguish  the ache  the pain  and offering  a magic  in its place a quiet divination coaxed   gently from the earth roots  planted  patiently making  me ques...
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