Retreat Words

And so

I give up

I retreat

into

the heat of my tears

and the ache

at the back

of my throat

"just go

if that's

what you want"

words that float

in my head

and fight

with my heart

I'm hard

and fast

about the last

few years

it was love

like

I had never known

and I could

never know

the way

it would

one day break me

and take me

from a smile

to a

lonely

angry

sad

Sunday

one day

I wanna look back

and pretend

That I walked

away first

so the tightness

in my chest

can eventually fade

but for now

I give up

I'm moving

on

cause my heart

tells me you did

And I did

not wanna believe it

but time

tells the truth

that is hardest to hear

and

it is clear

now

that the worst

has happened

and I'm not sure

I've survived

but I

have

given up

cause these tears

have washed

away

the promise

and time is

just too honest