Sustain Words

This friendship 

That I bear for the future

Leaves my heart 

Out on the line

To dry out in the sun

To sag under the weight 

Of the storms

And more 

Often than not 

To chill in the wake

Of us 

As our temperature drops 

Drops 

Drops

And it stops

My heart

And stutters 

And starts

And the air in my lungs

Is heavy and thick

And it’s as if

I’m breathing in 

A fog

And I’m not 

Supposed to say 

That I’m having trouble breathing

Or seeing past it 

But that’s it

That’s all I feel

And I am becoming 

Someone I no longer 

Recognize 

But I 

Said that I would

And I should 

For us 

For just 

The thought of a maybe

Lately that seems to be enough

So my heart 

Is out on that line 

Exposed 

I suppose for the best intentions

So I won’t mention

That it’s heavy 

And it’s ready

As I speak 

To break 

Out in that heat

To freeze out in that cold

To drown in the rain

In an effort to sustain 

This friendship for the future us

This friendship for the future

This friendship 

This