Just Live Words

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We are not 

Seeing 

Eye to eye

And 

I 

Am walking 

Barefoot 

On

The wire 

While I 

Sit him down to explain

My name 

Is my name

And I can't spare 

Change 

Not for nothing 

Not worth the pain 

I gotta just be 

Me 

No spare parts

No bare hearts

Sleeveless keeps it 

Hard 

So I offer 

My thighs 

To keep us apart

Just skin 

Without the need for scars

Let's just eat 

Cause I get dark 

But sweetie I don't sleep

I keep

Ice 

In these veins 

Nice

To be safe 

But he doesn't 

Feel me when I say 

I'm not the good girl

I'm not 

What you are

I'm not a stunt, but

I've bent back too far

I’ve been back

too far

Into the recess

Of needless

Love affairs

Love left me

High and dry

Exposed

Though

A different kinda bare

Not where

I want now

Not there

I’m gone now

I can be

Today

And tonight

That’s fine

That’s my offer

Offer me indifference

Resistance

To norm

A soft place to play

With your length

And my form

Full

Free

Fantastic

Actions

Acting

How we really want

Back in that place

In the back

Of our minds

Where it haunts

Us

Taunts us

Staunch us

Against the flow

Of rationale

Have me now

Like this

With

The absence of strings

Be alive like this

Be free

Just live 

I'm only ever this 

This is all 

I'm gonna give 


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