Bargain Words

24 with 3 kids 
and he 
is the man of her mothers dreams 
or so it seemed 
when she was pressed 
to impress him 
mommy stressed that she dress in 
something to catch his eye 
and I guess 
she made her attempt 
cause she caught him 
but really it was not needed 
he was bartering for a place to stay 
and she was offered 
as a bargain on the rent 
take my daughter 
no money spent 
and so two lost souls 
got together 
got the better 
of life 
man and wife 
and weight and struggle 
and stress and yes 
it was somehow 
more than she had planned for herself 
she felt suffocated by life 
by love 
by us 
3 kids and this is just too much 
she found her feet 
and backpedaled quick 
out the door 
down the street 
taking all the heat for being 
"that kind of mother" 
walking away from pieces of herself 
so that she 
could have some peace about herself 
room to breath 
room to be someone 
she once dreamed of 
someone she deemed love 
was possibly maybe worthy of 
but she took things with her 
that she never gave back 
pieces of our hearts 
broke and scattered at the bottom of her bag 
never once tried 
looking back 
never once 
thought to explain the remains 
she left bereft in her wake 
I wonder what she tells herself 
on mothers day