Slight Words

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He likes for me
To spoon feed
My inadequacies
So he can spit them back
Smile
And act like
We're not just host
And parasite
Like he's doing me a favor
I swallow my pride
And he savors
Every minute of it
Every minute I bend
Back further than I should
I break
Tiny fissures split across my aches
Threatening
Begging me to take
Considerable action
Consider this acting
Is doing me more harm than good
And I know I should
Walk quickly away
But I stay
I stay
I stay
And I lose a little more of me
Each day
Because I just can't find
The time
To teach myself to say
If I'm honest,
I need help
If I ever hope
To get away
I am held
And I never know
The things
To say
To my reflection
To make me
Believe
I should ignore
His misdirection
That I
Should bide my time
Surrender
To introspection
He likes to feed
And I
Part my lips
And always
Always eat
But should instead
Clench these teeth
And decide
To starve
And die
To finally be free

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