Fail Words

There are things I want 
That I ask you for
When you're not looking 
Or listening 
I speak 
And leave
The words in the tight spaces 
Between my teeth
Pass them silently to you 
When we breathe
Hot hard gasps 
Against our needs 
And yet you never seem to hear
And so I never seem to be
Satisfied in this thing 
We insist
On calling love
When we both know
It's merely more 
Of the same things as before 
Because 
By now
We are old enough to pretend
We never made mistakes 
And so it must 
Be someone else
To blame
So I speak 
And share 
And shout 
My needs
When you're furthest away from me
And you offer lies 
And apologies
As freely as you please
Smiles plastered 
On empty faces
And we take this as a sign
We are no good 
No fun
No one 
Will be the thing we need 
No one 
Will ever hear us speak
So we go our separate ways 
Cycles idle
Now make haste
To start things 
We will never finish 
Never win at 
Never know 
There are things we want
But we always 
Fail to grow