Denial Words

It is 

with complete 

and utter 

resistance

that I 

admit this

that I am willing 

to say out loud

right now

that I want

myself

felt 

by the nerves

in your fingertips

the skin

on your waiting lips

it breaks me 

in a way 

to be this splayed 

by feelings

by needing

by the part of me 

that is base

humanity,

animal 

hunger 

thunders 

through my veins 

and I remain

unable to break away

to reason 

to be in 

any amount of control

I am 

enthralled 

by your scent 

devolved

from solid 

and strength

to a weeping 

wet

mess

of need

desperate 

greed

for the fusion 

of bodies

ours

for hours

no heed 

to sun

or stars

we cycle slow

like the moon

we ebb 

we flow

we reach

we peak

soon soon soon

so much 

of us 

just a blur

of softened bones

of moans

of teeth

and sheets

and we 

as one 

with no regrets

expect 

from me 

my need to keep 

this to myself

to not offer you 

the satisfaction 

of my want 

my longing for you, 

your entire 

self