For This Words

I did it

All wrong

I know that

Now

The wrong

Hands

In the wrong

Places

The wrong

Mouth

On the wrong

Faces

Takes its toll

We go

The wrong way

Down

The dark

Racing

Cause we

Lack

Patience

And I

Am not

Exempt

Any and all

Attempts

And

I am here

Painting

Sheets

With the sweet

Of me

And he

Thinks

We’re making

Love

But this

For me is

Cold

Blood

Bed

Stuff

It’s not my fault

But my

Heart’s

Stuck

And he believes

He belongs

With me

But I

Am

Unfettered

Unsettled

By

The thought

Of being

Underneath

The whole

Spreading

My heart

On platters

For a matter

Of minutes

That will

Become second

Only to forever

And I never

Learned

How to breathe

Underwater

But he wants

To keep me

In a bottle

In a drawer

By his bed

And fill me

With his head

The thoughts

That are

Meant

To keep me

Floating

Hoping

That he’ll call

And I reach

Out for

All

The other

Available

Hands

Cause my body

Doesn’t

Understand

Commitment

It only

Knows it needs

A minute

Of something

Delicious

At any given

Moment

And his lips

Do their best

But they

Fail to own it

And I know

That all

These

Hands

Are wrong

And all

These mouths

I taste

Are way too strong

I know

I knew it

All along

But I can’t

Convince

My body

That my

Heart

Is worth

It’s salt

So I do

What I must

In the midst

Of all

My wrong

The hands 

The mouths

The choices

The voices

That scream inside 

As I ignore

Their warnings 

Never mind

Just let them warm me

And my 

Inconsistencies

Let them save 

Their words

Cause love 

Never

Worked 

For me 

Hands up 

Its just what 

I know I am 

I know I've done it

Wrong

These places 

That I've been

Have made it 

All too clear 

So I drown myself

In guilt 

While I let him

Have a swim 

Between

The bridge 

These thighs 

Have built

As I come to grips

With the truth

That I

Am made just right

For this