Too Fast Words

Slow deep breaths 

To help me 

Forget

The mess

I've gotten into 

This time

This one is too much

This one is too close

This one has used up

The last of my hope 

Of my 

Patience

Fast clashed

With what was 

Supposed to be nascent 

New 

Fresh 

Humble beginnings

But you jumped right in 

Clothes on 

Swimming

Against my currents

And my better judgment

Does this 

Mean we

Are done then

If we didn't even 

Start yet

It all gets 

Mixed up in my mind

Time flies

Without the wings

Brought about 

By taking things 

Slow

We go 

Through false motions

I drown in 

This ocean

Of regret

Too quick

Too wet 

Two knew but yet

We carried on didn't we

It's my fault 

This is weak

I made lines and I 

Crossed them 

Tossed them for the sake 

Of human natures

Ache 

For connection 

And it left you

Thinking I maybe

Changed my mind

But I'm...

Well... me and my heart 

Are cold as ever

Never 

Got the hang of 

Being tethered 

-Let her 

Go

Let you know 

If I can

-It wasn't you

-It was me

Being used to empty hands

And you held fast

And I got that

Heavy feeling 

In my bones

You were building bridges

Meant to 

Carry us home

But I am 

Nomadic

Have been

Since inception I'm guessing

And I need 

Spaces 

Places to roam

To go 

And breathe 

And be me all alone

You need 

Something I know 

I don't know

How to be 

You need someone still

And open 

And new 

And I am 

In constant

Unwavering motion

And going 

To slowly 

Slide 

Away 

And you 

Can call it afraid

But it is 

My truth 

The way that I stay

Parallel

With my sense of self

I thought it was me

But you need 

Someone

Else

And I hate to say it this way

To break it this way

To make 

This decision 

In what looks to be haste 

But I know what I feel

Isn't likely 

To change

And it hurts 

But its honest and I am

Not sure 

I know how else

To be brave