Five Hour Words

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Five hours ahead
But somehow
I see the future first
I know the future hurts
More than we care to admit...
Morning is there
But you get
Lost in the stars
And its amazing,
But It'll cost me
My heart
And honesty's hard
But you
Honestly are
A double edged sword
And a trouble
That's more
Than I thought I'd face
How you managed
To move
Across
Waves
To my space
And I Iet it slide
Cause I thought I'd be safe
But I
Feel myself break
Feel myself on
The verge of the hurt
From the same old mistakes
You and your face
And your words
And your truth
Find their way in
And
I'm
Falling for you
Knowing damn well
That's its not what I do
It's not a real choice
So I cover my ears
And drown out
Your voice
So I can save you
From me
So I can save myself
From the pain I foresee
You opened my heart
And its aching to beat
Desperate to be
Held close in hands
Not making it bleed
But making time
Still
Whenever we speak
Hours dissolve
And we exist
On a plane of our own
Five hours ahead
And you say the future's unknown
And I swallow
Tears
Cause I simply don't know
How to be home
How to be whole
How to believe
This ache in my soul
So I smile
And pretend
And make plans
For the truth
That'll come in the end
Five hours ahead
And you
Live in the moment
While I see the future
And reluctantly
Own it

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