Broken Words

and i'm a broken mess 

of bones

thrown 

with abandon

into cardboard boxes

separated 

from myself

what's left 

of order

in this life

that i've tripped through

ripped through 

heartbeat on speed 

quick to

steal away my breath 

and i beg

please take me with you

make me fit you

you're not even trying

please 

pack my heart 

don't make me miss you

remember when 

we were 

so close

our fingerprints insisted 

there was no 

difference

between us

when the sun 

was hard pressed to fit 

shadows between us 

when we made

so much sense 

no logic was needed 

and now

somehow 

while i was asleep

in the moment that i looked away

in the space 

of the seconds

that our breaths

did not align 

you decide 

that it's over 

and I

am only enough

for the past 

the last few years

and the tears

fill the room 

fill my lungs

we are done

I drown 

and you have 

moved on

you have 

been gone 

but I missed it 

insisted 

that everything was right 

everything was 

as it should be 

but we could be 

okay

could rebuild 

could will the pieces

of me back together

to whatever

semblance of me 

doesn't take up too much 

of your time 

take a second

to cross over the line

you've drawn 

between what we were

and what you want

to be 

without me

cause I was a mess

of broken bones

before today 

begging you

to stay