Distance Words

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Something 
happened 
in between 
the moments 
we were
apart
the far 
somehow 
managed 
to create a way 
to diminish 
the distance
the insistent
voice 
in my head 
speaking 
for my heart
we were safe
but really 
we were scarred 
we were hard 
we were confused
about who 
and what 
and how 
to trust 
to settle 
to love
the distance
was a catalyst
I listened out 
for the echoes
of things 
you were 
already saying 
I let them 
find me
I let them 
sink in
I wasn't thinking
I was feeling 
I was falling
for the 
first time 
without 
seeing danger
without 
wanting 
to admit 
to myself 
that happiness
didn't have to be 
a stranger
could be 
something
greater 
than quiet 
moments alone
something 
happened 
in the absence 
to recreate
my idea
of home
how it could 
float
between
spaces
how it could exist
in many places
how I could 
l allow
the right 
one
to make 
changes
something
in the way
you 
showed up 
slowed up 
my ever 
moving 
thoughts
gave me pause
made me
call 
the cards 
the way they fell
made it impossible 
to deny 
the truth
even if 
I couldn't 
offer it to you
in the quiet 
of my mind
I know
something 
happened 
in the distance
and I wish it
didn't 
make me 
so afraid
and I wish 
that I 
could be more brave
and I hope 
I don't 
miss the moment
I hope I 
can be less 
hopeless
I really want
to be more open
cause something 
happened 
when I wasn't looking
when the miles
spanned between us
and it's 
eager to be spoken
a honeyed secret 
on my tongue
the distance 
did this
caught your words
your actions
your magic
and threaded 
silver strands 
of 
something 
that cannot 
be 
undone

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