Math Words

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maybe I 
don't need 
love
I simply need 
more of 
this math 
this collection
of adds
small little things 
gathered 
over moments
and months
laughs
and naps
and stitches 
fixing more
than pockets
filled with 
something 
solid 
something 
sacred 
taken 
in measured doses
holding 
space
tight in my throat
that ache
that tastes
the tears 
you try not to cry
kindness 
multiplied
gifted 
like trinkets
glitter 
gold
filling all the empty space
I used to know
I used to crave 
I used to say 
the emptiness 
was me 
was everything 
I would need
but I am forced
to reevaluate 
recalculate 
tally up 
the smiles 
the warmth 
the chiseled 
bits 
of concrete
falling at my feet
from the walls
that felt 
so necessary 
now noted
as obsolete
the oxygen 
sweeter 
when I breath
the reflection 
revealing 
a version of me
I have longed to know
bag 
after bag 
emptied 
am I 
closer to home 
closer to no 
more sad 
sullen 
stories 
is it time 
to factor in 
the feeling
the caring 
the sharing 
stories
dreams
needful things
the promise 
of two 
of us
maybe that 
I suppose
is a kind of love
the slow 
simmer
of what 
could condense
and become 
the pure 
the essence 
the plus
to my one
the never 
again 
alone 
cause the truth 
always 
adds up 
the math 
the fundamental 
nature
the foundation 
the crux
maybe I found it 
maybe the words
don't matter
maybe this 
is enough 

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