Prayer Words

I offer prayers

To a god

I don’t believe in

For the strength

To leave him

In peace

At least

For a moment

I will own it

The courage

That escapes me

I pray this love

Abates please

I am lately

Broken

By the omens

Only known

When he

Forsakes we

As more than friends

I pray

To a god absent in my heart

Because I am

At my ends

I wanna touch him

He needs his freedom

I wanna let go

But

I

Need

Him

I am torn

In my direction

I am starved

For his affection

The way

It used to be

But i'm not

The me

I used to be

When there was hope

There might be

More of me

I failed our chance

And the friendship

Slowly slips away

And it’s not his fault

So he should

Freely walk away

But I beg stay

And love me

But he’s seen

I’m ugly

When I don’t

Get what I need

I complain and expect

For him to keep

Me in the forefront

Cause I am sore from

The feelings

He now has

And I now have

The knot in my stomach

Cause its over

My days seem colder

And I am empty

He 

has decided to focus

On the friendship

So it has ended

And I am restless

He doesn’t touch me

And I can’t stand it

And I feel stranded

So I become

A girl with a crush

And I hit him because

It is the only way to touch him

As I struggle

Not to love him

And hope he might love me

He fights me back

And I persist

It’s not the pain

That will subsist

It’s his hands on my skin

His body on mine

That soothes me within

It’s all I have left

But I am losing this fight

I am in love with this man

And behind the fear

Of losing him

It's only then

I understand

Holding on like this

Aint right

He deserves his peace

And soon

That place in my heart

Will have to just release

And let him be