Silence Words

After all these years

of listening

the silence 

is so hard to hear

so heavy in the air

I fight to breathe

fight to see

a way around it

a way to be 

okay

without our words

to keep us warm

the chill 

of the cold shoulder

is overwhelming

I see his eyes

not seeing me

and I am seemingly

not free

to start another

conversation

as, 

we are frozen

at

the last one

holding our breaths

at this pause

and I, 

effectively the cause

my perceived silence

was loud enough

to drown him out

and now I’m sitting,

waiting,

hoping,

for his voice 

to come back

and his eyes to see me

like they did

right before

our words

took this turn

and stopped 

being heard