Same Words

I suppose
it's easy 

to get carried 

away

to know 

I should leave

but want me 

to stay

to make

slow 

measured 

movements

natural 

soothing

sentiments

meant to lend

something 

special 

to the night

but we have to 

get this right

we haven't changed

we are the same people 

we were

the day before 

with the same wants

the same ghosts

the same haunts

the same needs

the same pleas

we want 

what we somehow

can't figure out 

how to be...

tell me if I'm wrong

tell me if

effort is everything 

to you 

the way it is to me

tell me if 

I have become 

worth the risk 

worth the lift

are you checking 

my wants

off your list

like one of your missions

or are you 

waiting 

for permission 

to make changes

to make more 

of your language

to make me 

believe it's me 

are you open 

to making me see 

you different 

or are you sitting 

staying safe

inside your head

leaving me to get 

all worked up 

over stimulated

over nothing

over love 

that doesn't seem to 

really see me 

really need me 

for more than 

company 

I want 

a love to comfort me

to come for me

desperately 

breathlessly 

everything 

I'd ever hope for 

It's nice to be close

to hope 

to fall into rhythms 

to cope 

I know

but I want more

for us both 

I want magic

I want to break 

bad habits

I want balance

I want the first day

and the last day

and the journey

in the middle 

traveled with 

intention

don't get me wrong

It's nice to connect

to get 

caught up in moments

I suppose it's 

easy to get carried away

but we

haven't changed

and I'm afraid

if I stay

the old us 

will own us

and it hurts 

too much

to live that way