I Words

-

I'll be honest

now 

why not 

what's left

I am 

empty 

without you 

I am 

any other person 

on the street

without we

to ground 

these tired feet

I am 

a heart 

in a cooler

waiting 

for connection

I am 

less than 

the sum 

of our parts

and I know

just enough math

to understand the deficit

I am left with 

I am empty every day 

books don't

laughs don't 

fill me like up 

like they used to 

this is not new

I have never had

enough helium to float 

through life 

but I liked 

it well enough

every once in a while 

I even felt 

like I could forget

the best of 

the bad 

but that's no longer 

an option 

I am 

stalled 

by signs of caution 

slow speed 

so I can see

the blind spots ahead 

but time stops instead

and I am 

an empty tank 

eager for the fuel of you 

the pull of you 

against my threads 

I am fate

without her spools 

the break 

that precedes the rules

with no one 

to carry me out 

I am 

just a girl 

standing here 

calling out

asking to be 

part of something greater

before life fades her 

out to black 

I want a love song

that gets stuck in my head 

till then 

I am words 

waiting for a reader 

sweeter 

without buds to taste

I am here 

and I guess 

I just have to wait

I'll be honest 

I am good

but I long to be great

long to not wait 

anymore

for our hands 

to fit 

for my heart 

to relearn how to skip 

beats 

when we 

are side by side

cause I 

have nothing left

no reason now

not to be 

honest with myself

I am wanting for myself

what we had 

reflected in that glass 

of water you offered 

to wet 

my

coffers

empty of

the treasure love 

that I know was us 

I'll be honest now 

why not 

I have 

nothing left 

to be afraid of

I am made of 

sterner stuff 

then I let on 

but come on

I'm just a girl 

standing in the corner 

waiting for 

the movie magic that is us

to offer it's lights 

tonight

at the end of 

my vulnerability 

fill fill fill me 

I'm not too proud to admit,

to ask for 

what it is I know I need

let's be 

honest together 

you want 

what I want

better late than never 

I'll be honest now

why not

all I have left 

is forever


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