Break Free Words

 

Seems to me

There seem to be

Not enough reasons

For leaving

For being

On the other side

Of this

For seeing

Any other side

But his

I offer

What seem to me

Valid justifications

For taking

Time

To myself

But he is certain

They’re not worth

The time they take

To be felt 

He's insistent 

That this is 

The place 

I'm compelled 

To disagree but he 

Isn't one 

To be held 

Accountable 

For his actions

He's acting 

On emotion alone

He doesn't think 

He's on the brink 

Of the destruction 

His emotions condone

And I 

Am of the mind

That I need to be free

Of this whole 

Explosive 

Endeavor 

It's never his fault 

But the faults 

In our cause 

Are exceedingly active 

No docile 

No placid 

They give way 

To earthquakes

And the fallout 

Is massive

He sees only red

He speaks only acid 

Heartbeat speeds

Too rapid 

Too close to get clear

Too active 

And I am running

Out of places to hide 

Out of bones 

To shatter 

Out of days stayed home 

For it not to matter

To be noticed 

He knows this 

He goes this 

Extra mile to smile 

To tell me 

To be 

Patient 

To not make him 

Do this 

To be good 

To get myself through this

It's useless 

This isn't love 

This is all together

Fruitless

Attempts 

To amend 

The most hopeless

Of things 

And this hopelessness 

Brings 

Me closer 

To seeing 

The truth 

There is no hope 

For me 

With him

So I will 

Undoubtedly do 

The thing I have been 

Convinced 

I can not 

I will brave, not him 

But the mirror 

I fought 

The part of me 

That allowed me to be weak 

That told me

I deserved the worst 

That made me keep 

Finding forgiveness 

And endlessly calling it empathy

I will face her 

And embrace 

The places 

That have been broken 

Restore the things 

That have be stolen

Make whole 

The open 

Wounds

And do 

That which I was so afraid to do 

I will offer myself 

Freedom 

From him 

And this thing 

We mistook for love 

And he

Will have to heal 

Himself 

Cause damn

I owe myself 

That much

Don't know myself

That much 

But I know 

The time 

Has come

To find out

If I will decide 

To be made

Of stronger stuff