Old Words

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I think

I might need

New words for you

I knew words that used

Only the surface of my sentiments

Only the bare minimum of the elements

Aroused by how life laid me bare

So effortless

So I enter this

New chapter after the last few years

And I see you

And I fear

That you just might be right

That we’re quite alike

But individual enough

To align

Nice

Neat like zippers

Silly really but teeth line up

Like figures

Add up to fingers

Linked

Hands locked

Tight on that grip

Fingerprint on that trigger

Soft slow pull

Leads the way

Heart full

Explosive

Entries send me sinking

Quick

To the bottom

Of what might be my fate

Gladly have me

My words say

And for you I do intend to make

New words

New letters

New language

Much better

Much deeper than I have managed

The last words

That now heard

Seem to me too average

Too simple

Too subtle to utter so wishful

I feel something pulling

Pressing

Paradox

Of leaving what’s right

Page wrinkled 

Left to write a brand new lesson

For my heart to follow

Nerves spark

Cause risks hard

For me to swallow

But for you

I might

Just ache to be

Less hollow

Less broken

Quickly stitch

My heart back open

To receive you

To relieve you

Of the burden of the words

Despite myself

I know I need

To believe you 

Till the evils 

Are sifted, shifted, cleaned through

Seen through

Brighter eyes 

Writing new words to spurn 

The change of tides

Within 

This drowning heart

You breathe new life

And I am charged 

With the opportunity to embrace

Restart 

Run hard 

Away from all my troubled dreams 

Keep me 

Safe inside this brand new truth 

So yes,

I think I need new words 

Cause love, it's just too much 

And the old ones 

Just won't do 


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