Tear Words

I'll shed a single tear for you

Cause you deserve it

You have been nothing but perfect

And I am certain 

That some lucky girl 

Is worth it 

But the trouble is 

That I'm furthest 

From the possibility 

Of being she 

And I am surfing

On waves that take my breath

And best me 

At my aim 

To follow through with this

Trust me when I say 

There's no way I am it

The every day and the next 

The always and the best 

The point 

Where hearts connect 

Is left undone 

In my defense 

I never said 

I could 

Never said 

I would

Despite the fact that 

You always said 

I should 

Take you at your word

I never knew how far 

I stood 

Away from the perfect 

You described

Until I took

The time to recognize

The tightness in my chest

The closing throat that hopes

For oxygen whenever you

Offer your heart

Whenever you start 

To believe

That I’m where you are

Planning on having your hope 

Rested on

While I am on

The edge of me seat

With selfish thoughts

Of self defeat

I sometimes see

A glimpse

Of things

All incomplete

I mean the truth is

I wanna do this

I wanna move quick

I wanna lose things

In the wake of our nude skin

I wanna know

That I’m able

To leave my heart

On your bedside table

Safe

Sound

Secure

Even as I feel my feet

Freed from the ground

By the lightness we have found

I want my hand

To fit yours

To miss yours

My mouth to kiss yours

My mouth to keep your

Secrets

Sealed

Behind these lips

I wanna know

That there isn’t anyone

You’d rather

Kiss

I want nothing

More than you

And I

To crossover into us

To get closer

To be overwhelmed by just

The minutes spent together

But I’m not sure

If I even remember

How to trust

If I used up

My surplus of love

If I ever had enough

If I ever was enough

If I know how

To believe

That I could be

Someone

You

Could

Love

So I think

It’s for the best

I get

My things and go

But know

I don’t leave

With my heart light

I don’t know

That this is right

But it is necessary

Pain is secondary 

To the truth I use 

To move 

My feet across 

That room

And maybe you're right

Maybe I'm just afraid 

Maybe I should be brave

But I won't risk your days 

I can't list the ways 

It could all fall apart 

But know 

That this comes from

Whatever is left 

Of my heart 

I will cry 

For what I can't have

Despite the hardness I harbor

I knew you were 

Something special

Someone who started a spark

And I walk away

Knowing

I at least had a second 

To lessen 

My dark 

With the light of your 

Stars