One Sided Words

I came hard

Against

My fragile hand

Hot

Heavy breathing

Seeing

You

Your face

Bright behind my eyes

Sentiment

Leaving remnants

Of you against

My thighs

Thought I could

Move on

Forward

Past

Asked

You If you liked my smile

Said you could

Only stay

Awhile

All the while

Placing me gently

On the shelf

Where friends

Are kept

That's us to you

Just a girl

You knew

Well.. You know

Cause I'm still here

I still hear

Your voice at night

Only with new words

Ones that

Don't hurt

Ones that work

As diligent

As these digits

Dancing deeper

Diving in

To own a little piece of

Me

More or less

Lying against

The bed

With this weight

On my chest

And this yearning

In my head

Cause you think

I'm cute

But cute doesn't do

The things

You're looking to

Have done

And my heart

Is sprung

Off the secrets

Kept beneath your tongue

The nights find me

Faded

Strength drained

From praying

For a little

Change in your

Affections

Just a chance

To make

A second

First impression

I can be less cute

Cut away the adorable

Aspects

And get

A little more

Of whatever it is

That you seek

Something slick,

And thick

And sleek

For your sophisticated needs

I can be

A little more of that

And a little

Less of me

Easy

Flip

The switch

And be

Someone else

Before I even realize

That I've lost me

Silly really

What I'm willing to give

For just a little bit

Of you

To give a fuck

But here I am

Offering to lose myself

For you

And the truth

Is all you want

Is someone

Else

Not for me to lose

Myself

I'm reading

Things all wrong

Being friends

Is not the

Worst thing in the world

I just have to

Figure out

How to be 

Me, okay 

With you 

Wanting 

Something else

Some any

Other 

Girl 

And I should

Be pleased

That you

See me

As a person

Deserving

Of having

Everything

I want

So long

As it’s not

You

And I do

Understand

So I keep

My hands

To myself

Tucked

Tight

In pockets

Stop it

This feeling

That haunts

When you go away

You promise

To be

Something

Special

Always

But in a different

Kind of way

And I say

All the things

You’d like to hear

And pretend

I don’t want us to be

The something

So amazing

You swear

Someone

Will

Want

From me