Purge Words

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I have inside me

pressing hard

against my heart

the need 

to write the words 

to a song 

that will remind me 

of all I am desperate to forget

and yes

I know

that it doesn’t make sense

and it doesn’t change then 

or now 

or how 

it all went down 

but I have to capture it 

some way

so I can end us 

or the thought of

what was 

the everything i hoped for 

the anything i hoped for 

the words 

you were supposed to give me

the love

We were supposed to be living

Giving

All I’ve got

To the thought

That will end these thoughts

Purge myself

Submerge myself

In everything

That will never be

So I can see it clearly

Carefully

Collected

Pooled

In my palms

Poured

Out in ponds

Leaving me

Finally

In peace

I want chorus

Chords

Epic

Melancholy

Scores

To capture

And contain

The pain

We faced

In the face

Of that thing life does

Fast thinking

Blights love

Lurks inside

Killing quickly

Withered

Wishing does

Nothing

So much as spite us

I have a need

To be

Free of these

Feelings

Filling

The spaces

Needed to be empty

Send me

Lyrics

If its

Not too much

To ask

So I can see the future

From the

Safety of

My certain past

Making it a slow one

So one

Note floats close

To the next

Make it last

I have a need

Pressing

Pressing

Hard

Against

My chest


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