Balance Words

I don't want this anymore

I don't want to struggle for balance

in your presence

I wanna be your friend

cause it hurts to love you

and it's not your fault

but it's your smile

and your eyes

and your thought that defeats me

and I wanna win...just once

I wanna wait my turn

or be looked over

without dying inside

I wanna wake up with a clear head

and a light heart

I wanna listen

without watching your mouth

and tasting it in my mind

I wanna hug you

and let go right before

that second that reads my thoughts..my want

"In Love" is "In Danger"

and I wanna be safe with you

I wanna breathe without your help

I wanna let go

cause I know you can't be held

not now...not by me

I wanna look into your eyes

and not be consumed

I wanna act natural

I wanna stop this hurting

I wanna give up hope

because holding on is weakness

I wanna diminish the blinding light

so that I can see for miles

without loves smoke screen

I wanna do it all alone

I wanna do all of this

but how,

how do I lie to myself

When all I really wanna do 

is be with you