Disillusion Words

Do me this one favor, 

disillusion me

slowly

slightly

ever so tightly

I  am wound around you

and sound has found

a new way into me

and all I hear

is my voice

dipping

in and out of consciousness

whispering

Your

Name

Your

Name

Oh God

how you remain

on my tongue

like.. the residue of a sweet nectar

how you stay on every thought

gliding

in and out between questions and answers

and I  will smile

and accept that this is hard for you as well

but please break

from straight

lines

and tell me a story to melt my bones

and caress my love for you

Perhaps... offer me another choice in this matter

because want

is collecting

in a puddle at my feet

and in attempts to avoid getting wet

I  am soaked

by your existence

don't you see as i shiver and wait patiently

for you

because I understand

that who you are right now

will not risk this, but who you are right now

is all I wish

I am falling

gracelessly apart

at every single word

you offer me

and the secret way you speak

without saying

and I know what you know

and I get what you want

from me

when time is ready

but in the meantime

be sweet and disillusion me

because what hides beneath

is all too real for me