Green Words

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He's given 
his heart
green
verdant
certain 
somehow
that it is safe 
with me
and I 
am keen 
to do right
to be right
to act like
I am able 
to be open 
I'm hoping
but I'm 
going 
in circles 
dodging 
the hurdles
I set up 
for myself
my health 
my paranoid 
need 
to be free
to be ready
to run 
if things
get too 
much
but this
has left me
stuck 
a stick 
in the mud
he wants
my love
my heart
my trust, 
so hard
to reach
so as 
an offer 
of peace
he's 
given me
his heart
green 
verdant
earnest 
honest
solid 
so much 
like him 
he's given 
his heart 
and it's 
making me 
think
making me 
wish
making 
it difficult 
to insist 
I don't
want it 
but I
occasionally 
sit with it
silently 
soak it up 
smiling 
and so 
though 
I'm wary
I can admit
I like the weight
it carries 
the way 
it varies 
my emotions 
the way it 
places 
no demands
requests
no devotion
makes 
no pleas
it is content 
in my hands
and I 
am not 
beholden
to it's wants
or needs
this lack 
of obligation 
offers peace
and maybe
I'm ready
to be 
what he
needs

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