Need Words

It's okay
I get it
You're trying 
To put distance 
Between us
Change up 
The meaning 
To remove 
The feelings 
To rework 
The way we speak
Interactions 
Fleeting 
The back 
And forth
The walk away 
The back for more
The let me stay
The want
The want
The need
The gaze
The oh so close
But 
Not today 
I get it
It's more in your head
Not about me
Not about heat
Just the wrong
Scene
Eyes closed 
Thinking bout 
How to complete
How to come clean
Maybe
The crazy thing is
You're just not ready 
To admit
That the things
You like 
Are conflicting 
You like
the way I
inhabit the space
legs bare
stretched
spread
mouth sweet
pink
wet
skin warm
soft
pressed
as we sit side by side
laughs in our mouths
tears in our eyes
the best time
the best friends

the best and
the rest is
lost to me
the hows
the whys
bed beneath
my back
shuttered pain
behind your eyes
and maybe
you're wishing I was
someone else
wishing I
would look away 
would want less 
need less
be more
like someone who 
ignites 
someone who 
incites
some different feeling
but I'm not 
so I get it
you're adjusting 
emotional
proximity 
personal boundaries 
sounds to me
like a way out
a way off 
this wheel 
we're running on 
out of breath
nothing left
I get it
you need to be free
and I 
will not react
I'll choose
to respect
your needs