Yes Words

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Saying
Yes
Is like 
holding my breath 
Under water
And I'll try it
For you
Stop breathing 
To prove 
I gave it 
the chance
it deserves
the seconds
the minutes
the hours
the days
it might likely
be worth
the truth is
it hurts
lungs
burn
and I 
fight
to rise 
to the surface
but I hold
I wait
I stay
still 
will
myself 
to relearn 
breathing 
being 
alive
in this new
place
an environment
that takes
getting used to 
I'm getting 
used to 
the way 
you look at me 
here 
like I'm something 
special 
like I might be
better 
than I have ever known
I feel the pressure
in my chest
the weight
of this test
of wills
the wiles
of thrills
disguised 
as fate
but maybe 
this is safe
this is easy
doesn't take
much for me 
thrive
maybe before
I was gone 
and now 
I'm alive
maybe I 
was holding 
my breath 
this whole time
mind tense
body tight
held at the edge 
of my seat
maybe he 
allows me 
to breath 
maybe the water
reflected 
my need
maybe I 
can transform 
finally be
something quiet
and still and at peace
sinking 
softly 
to my knees
resting finally 
on this beach 
saying yes
is like holding 
my breath 
but maybe that's
the nightmare's
I've been calling 
dreams
maybe I 
have to relearn
how I perceive
what I'm being asked
maybe I can be done
holding my breath
maybe 
all it takes 
is saying 
yes 

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