Don't Words

-

 

It's funny 

that you should 

feel this way 

but let me say 

this 

it's not what you think

I'm never gonna be

your forever

just so you know 

I hear you

I know you think 

this laugh

is something 

to put in your pocket 

and walk with 

and you can 

for a little 

but listen 

I'm not a shore 

there are

no spaces within me

to anchor to 

I am hollow

you want to, 

you say you will

but I'm not the girl you follow

I am a zephyr 

I will come and go forever

not meant to be held 

not meant to be...

well, honestly your everyday 

this "love"

this "us"

is erstwhile 

ephemeral

evanescent

let us not get bent 

out of shape 

no, let's take this for what it is

let's just touch 

fingertips 

so when it's time 

the release is easy

please believe me 

when I say that I am here

but I just can't stay 

it's not me it's you

life has another road planned

for you to travel 

a different story 

than the words of my pages 

you've waited ages 

maybe

in the unconscious

space of your ever open heart

for something somewhere, someone, 

I assure you I am not her 

I am hard

in the places 

where your head 

wants to rest

Let us 

use words

other than love

Let's be in the moment

don't look

for the future in my eyes 

just be with me

right now 

today 

like this

my mouth offers nothing more 

than a kiss

my body offers nothing more

than my skin 

My heart is not part

Of what I freely give here

Let's just live here

In the seconds it takes

To taste

The memory that stays 

When we say 

Yes but for just today

Just tonight

Lay claim on my 

Body

Because my soul

Is a ghost

That your hands 

Can't ever will never hold

I know 

That you want to love me

But don't 


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