Tell Words

The secrets we keep

to keep 

the lights on 

to the 

wrong 

on the other side

of the fence

are gonna be 

exposed 

by me and my 

prose 

my poetry 

cause you 

shoulda never let her

have me 

after all the

things I said 

she did 

she did

leave the minute

you walked away

she did remind 

"kindly" 

that you never loved me

anyway

she did lock me in 

that little room 

at night 

with a fucking bucket

under the bed

for the seconds 

that I remembered 

I was human 

despite 

that angry

animal

that raged inside my chest

and threatened to be 

my end 

she did let him 

put his hand places

while calling me

a whore

cause I had the guts

to say it 

she did leave me waiting

at the window 

she did let me fall 

down those stairs 

cause she cared

more for a goddamn 

drink 

than this thing

you left on her steps 

again

YOU

let that happen

you let a little girl 

be broken

by the hand 

that birthed her 

and pushed first

at the shoulders

then harder 

at the head 

till I 

was tipped back 

on the floor

and I didn't

ask about you 

anymore

so that I just watched

the clock 

tick 

the empty seconds 

of my life away

till Sunday

when you came 

to pick up 

what 

was left of me 

and she 

plastered that saccharine smile

across 

her smoky skin

and swore 

that she'd be in 

the worst state without me

and you believed 

because you never could

see 

a woman for what 

she was 

behind her eyes

her thighs

her penchant

to fall for your lines 

you could never see 

a woman for what she was

because

you kept all your 

thoughts on the surface

and I was never enough 

never ever worth it

for you to dig deeper

for you to see her 

or her or her 

for what she was 

cause 

we got in the car 

and went home

and what waited 

was another

one 

even less of part of me

even more so

tired of me 

of my presence 

but when did 

this ever occur 

to you 

no you never could 

think past 

that 

space 

surrounding yourself

you let those 

days be 

secrets I had to keep

but its heavy 

for these shoulders

I'm 

over the weight

I will spill 

them here on the peace

of this blank page

you, she, her

would prefer 

that I keep it 

in the dark 

but the secrets 

are far 

too bright 

to not come out 

into 

this light