Else Words

 

There at the end

Of our road

I found a sadness 

That held tight 

To the remains

Of my heart

My hope 

My whole world

The mornings

The nights 

The every days

In every way 

I guess I have to

Finally admit 

That I always knew

I wasn't it 

Wasn't “The On”e

For you

For an us that was 

Forever

And all the future 

That I had carefully 

Tucked away

Crumbled in my pockets

On my pillow

In my hands

I understand that look now 

the faraway 

that played at the edges 

of your fences

you were sensing

the end 

I could not bear 

to face 

to say 

was our last stop 

but it was

and I was

so certain I could 

laugh the tears 

away 

but the salt 

instead it ate away 

the beauty 

that we were 

what was worst

than having to walk away

was having to hear them say 

"you two were perfect"

in the end 

those words were worthless

no one was saved 

no, hearts were splayed 

open 

on every available surface 

certain

that there was no other way

I only know how 

to be 

this one 

me

and it seems

you were looking 

for someone else

so I must tell myself 

that this is done

you are always you 

but I have 

never 

been 

the one 

that road that was ours

is far behind me 

and on the dark days

when I start to find me

turning back 

wanting that

I remind myself

that I 

will only ever be me

and you 

you were waiting

for someone else