Lonely Words

I wanna write 

About sex

And sweat

And let's get married today 

But I'm alone

A girl

with a pen

and a blank page 

Hoping that these words

will be more

than life has been

Wondering if that guy

The one maybe 

I'm possibly supposed to be with

Will read this

And recognize me

And us as pieces

That should be 

Pressed

Together 

But right now 

I've got nothing 

No One

I'm 

Alone now

Orphaned by circumstances

Broken 

but understanding 

What I don't want 

or need 

But also knowing

That I cannot breathe

Without the grace of 

Someone standing 

Near 

Me

I try to wake up 

And convince myself

That I am fine 

Like this 

Alone

But no

I am empty

And I want hands to hold

Hands to know

Me 

Under these clothes

Back past these bones

Deep 

Into the heart

That I swore I would close

I need someone 

Who will make, 

Who will animate

This clay soul 

That I own

Eyes that will see scars

As stars in the map 

Of their skies

And trace them 

With hopes of the places 

They'll find

I want a mouth 

That speaks to me

First 

First thing in the morning 

With magic and words

One that fits 

Against 

All the places it says 

Are perfect 

One that says 

---Any and everything, yes 

You're worth it---

I want a mind 

Not like mine

But one that gets me 

Even when I'm doubting

That I am anything at all

I wanna fall 

head first 

in the worst way 

I wanna write words 

About passion

but I am without

I need action

lasting movement 

Maybe you then

are there too

waiting for your

"You"

Or maybe this is it for me

maybe these words

are as close

as I'll get 

to Complete

I wanna write about life 

and love 

and the forever of us

but that is two 

and I am one

I have here in this place

bared myself, my face

my need to be more 

than only ever me 

I have done this 

admitted my hurt with purpose

I am alone here 

and I need 

for you 

To follow the ink 

To search it 

This whole 

Wide 

World 

to find me, please find me 

I'll be the one  

I'll be that girl