Pretend Words

 

Let's be different 

let's pretend

the end

never found us

never 

broke us 

or told us

that we were never meant 

to be 

let's wake up 

and take up 

the whole bed together

lets tent

the sheets 

around us 

and just

love 

the silence

of the morning

while it's 

still ours 

to have

let's laugh 

silly secrets 

into each others mouths

and down 

the columns

of throats

and soak 

these pillows

this bed 

with the fresh 

scent of our skin

let's pretend

we're in love

and we can say it 

out loud 

unbound 

by the truth 

of me and you 

not really knowing 

how to do 

more than 

exchange whims 

and delight in skin

let's brighten dim

dark 

hearts

by making believe

that we are one 

lets spend the day 

with hands held

and words spelled 

into stories in our eyes

that we read

as our thighs

press 

against

the hopes 

we so were wishing for

when we were 

fishing for 

forever

in oceans of us

that held bare shoulders

wet with tears

bare hearts 

wrought with fears

...where are we

if we can't 

be here

let's be different 

I will start

It's hard but

I will rearrange the pieces

of my heart

I will fit 

you in

somewhere between

all the dreams

I have

and all the fears

that lasted longer

than I thought 

they would

let's pretend

that we 

are once again

standing 

side by side

and this time

I 

am the one 

you wished I was

and I'll forget 

that it's not me 

or you it's us

that just don't work

let's pretend 

it doesn't hurt

I wanna say this 

sometimes

I am 

sure that this, 

these words

are what I want

cause I want

to not have 

lost

a friend

but I'll be honest

I'll different

I just can't pretend