Sweet Words

I thought 

maybe we might

just walk

just talk

just be 

him and me

sitting

next to each other

but the moment

felt 

soft 

around the edges

blurry 

and better 

than I've felt one

in a long long time 

and I 

was hard pressed

not 

to place my hand 

on his chest

and look up 

from darkened lashes

to ask him 

if maybe 

he thought the room 

was warm

and possibly 

getting smaller

but before I offered 

these words

he heard

what my eyes 

were really asking 

and he 

with all the patience

of a saint

slowly lowered

his mouth 

to catch the faint

sound that had 

escaped 

from my desperate 

for a taste

lips 

this 

is 

it 

I have been patient

I have waited 

for lips 

like these

soft 

gentle

sweet 

he is 

he makes

my legs 

tremble 

as he brushes hair

across my temple 

it's different 

simple 

sweet

but still makes me

want

to drop these clothes

at his feet 

cause he goes slow 

his kiss

his tongue dips 

and just barely touches 

my own 

and I'm owned

by this delicate gesture

I moan 

and am instantly left 

worse

off than I was 

by this, 

this ache is just

pulsing 

pounding 

sounding

like drums 

in my ears 

I feel the sting 

of my tears

and am flooded in seconds

by years

of want 

where have you been 

his hand hot 

yet kind at the curve

of my shoulder

down 

my arm 

sliding to the center

of this storm 

--is that okay 

he asks 

and that is my undoing 

and I am undoing 

buttons

sudden 

burst of movement 

on my part 

and he places his hand 

on my heart 

beating hard hard hard

--tell me what you're thinking

and I am sinking

without hope 

in those eyes 

in those words

and my first

thoughts 

are that it

has been too long

since anyone 

looked at me like that 

since hands have graced this back

since I ached to have

exactly what he

promises to give 

honestly I'm in the worst state

when he states 

as though it were the truest thing

he has ever said 

that I 

am beautiful 

here tonight on his bed

that my eyes are amazing 

that I am the warmest 

that he's been 

and he says with a smile

-- I only want what you do 

when you're ready 

but we can just be 

here holding hands--

this, I understand 

is what it could be 

what it should be 

what it will be

tomorrow 

and the day after that

we will hold hands then 

but tonight I am right 

where I want 

and I want 

to slip beneath 

his sheets 

and be 

the girl 

who forgets

the world is cold

I wanna go

there with him 

and be 

in that place 

where his words 

can be 

believed