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I want you to believe this only cause it’s the truth

I really did love you

I really did lay myself bare at your feet

I really did die a little 

When you walked over me 

Over these 

Last few years 

I thought about you more than I care to admit to myself

Cause I was sure that I’d lifted myself

Out of the battered broken earth you left me in 

Imagining 

That you'd be back 

And that 

I actually meant something more

To you than a place to place your blame

I hate every single day 

I look in the mirror and see your face

Etched hard across my mouth 

My eyes 

The shadows left by the heavy lies I had to tell myself 

So I could sleep 

So I could believe 

That this empty broken heart deserved to be filled finally for the first time

But I 

On the worst nights am faced with truth that came with the caveat of loving you

I can't ever be anything else 

To anyone ever

Cause I wasted me

On wanting love from the one person who promised me without actions

Louder than any words that I was never enough

And the only thing that brings me peace 

Is that by denying me you prove, you hate a piece of you

So we're even in the end mutual enemies I guess

Make us something close to friends, but I won’t send postcard for false starts

And I'll pretend that I don't know how we both see each other

So listen I’ll keep being me, you keep being free

I won't be your heart 

And you won't be my mother