Steadfast Words

 

I saw the future

In his eyes

But it wasn't mine

It was hers 

Or theirs

Or something 

Sort of 

Heartbreaking

Its hard taking

Truth 

Jagged pills

Swilled

With something

Tasting vaguely

Like regret

Forget 

The best

Days that we have had

It's all 

Downhill

After that

I know 

"Meant to be"

I read it once

I wrote it

Tons

Of times but I

Have never been

The lead 

There's always

He or I

But never we

I let my heart

Get cold

Or never claimed it

After those times 

I 

Passed it around

Offers

Occasionally 

Turned down

Quickly 

Looked the other way

Waiting 

Wanting

Space

Often times replaced

By a better 

Fresher face

But I digress

The rest was just a

Series of the same

And I knew

From day one

That our hands 

Never really fit

Our paths 

Meant to intersect

Not parallel

Not he and I side by side

We cross, we toss 

Another coin into the well

And wait for wishes

This is 

Life I'm right

At least to me 

I'm sure

That I keep looking

For a future 

That I haven't known before

Maybe the way 

We left it, leaves it open

To interpretation

Were I perhaps more patient

But we saw maps and that

Was definitely 

Our station

Last stop

Gotta go

Get off here

I saw the future in his eyes

But it was only 

Outta fear

That I let myself 

Be held 

By someone else's 

One day 

Some other girls

Someday 

But love is blind

Making the future 

Not so clear

And we're

Memories in boxes

Honest in our thoughts it's

Not the way 

We'd say that we'd play out

But life's about 

The truth 

That's denied us in our youth

Use to be 

That we saw us as just

A point of fact 

But that was back

When we were dreamers 

Seemingly invincible

To broken storylines

We saw the future 

In each others eyes 

And grew up just in time

To know that no, 

We just shouldn't

Couldn't

Wouldn't 

Compromise