Self Centered Words

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I can't like 

Everything you write

It isn't possible 

Is it

Are we even

On the say page

Tripping over each other

For attention

On the same stage

I've changed

I've read

Too far into your words

And I've become afraid 

Of what I hear in them

Desperate

Dying 

Embers

Lie behind those eyes

Slicked forked tongue

Slipping

Sly

Between these thighs

Tricking hearts

To tick tock to 

Your lies

Make it feel good

If only for tonight

Then honey hang me

Out to dry

Am I right

Am I on to something

Suddenly 

I'm nothing

Day afters scare you

Bare you

Catch you quick

By ankles

You see

Angry

Anchors

Where really there are none

Just me 

And my heart 

One 

Was always your favorite

On account of

Your flagrant disregard 

For the scars 

You cut into my arms

When you begged me

Not to leave 

Hold me tight 

And then 

Release 

Leaving me 

To fall 

Hardly ever call 

Or come around

But now

You want me 

To read your words 

Feel the hurt

And make better of the worst

Tell you they’re deep

And keep 

Me on my toes

But no

I can't like 

Everything you write 

Like everything’s alright

Like yesterday’s not real

And we

Are new tonight

You were always

More concerned

With taking

Your turn ahead of me

Filling your selfish needs

Without regards

To we

But me

I’m definitely done

I don’t need to read your words

I know every

Single one


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