Sin Words

He has me 

trapped 

wrapped 

around his fingers

legs 

around his waist

he takes 

all the space in my mind

I breathe and I find

the taste of him 

inhaled in 

coating

my tongue 

my lungs

I've done the worst possible thing 

I let him in 

and I in joy 

revel in sin 

unadulterated whims 

somehow when I wasn't looking 

he took it upon himself 

to whisper wicked words to my waiting aching nerves

and I heard every single syllable sung 

like gospel praising lust 

powerful like drugs and it was just too much 

and he evoked doubt of my good deeds

and invoked ghosts that just so parted way these knees

without the consent of my mind my mouth gave him my

whole eager self 

and I called out for God but I'd made the bed in which he dealt

these delicious promises 

God is this the end 

and when

will I 

see him again

I let the devil in my bed 

and I call his name instead

overshadowed by clever hands 

that piece pleasure together like puzzles I myself would never understand

I am 

a prisoner of my own free will, and still I beg to be released

drop me love off the edge of this beast, break me against the edge of his teeth 

I'll suffer my shame if you promise to keep

me in these hallowed holy halls that echo endless all my calls for God to fall 

freely from my lips 

I have confused religion and I find absolution in the magic of his kiss 

he has me held hot in his palms 

and I beg him for freedom 

on my knees 

give him alms