Be Bad Words

 

I guess there's a part of me

That wants to be

The girl that breaks things

Cause I'm broken

And I'm open

To subtle suggestions

From baby faced poets

In plaid 

That have had 

A chance to chew 

On these words 

I'm open to dark hair

And beards

Smeared

With me 

My slick need

I think sometimes 

I wanna take risks

Say fuck it

And be me at my darkest

Cause the hardest

That I try 

I just can't lie 

To myself

Just can't be something

Else

To someone else

Can't afford to offer

A heart

That doesn't exist

So instead let me

Get lost in this

In seconds 

Where I lose myself

To fits

Of lust 

And couple us 

In couplets 

Under comforters 

In backseats

Bent over 

Haystacks

Good girl who wants bad

Cause life has 

Changed paths

And left me empty

Without the will

To fill

The spaces 

Anyway at all

I can't be lifted

So I might as well

Fall 

Sometimes I wish

I could be this

And kiss goodbye the good

So I could 

Just forget 

And let part of me live

The part that still 

Has heat

So I can try my hand 

At being free